Before you, I believed I was afraid of commitment. I tried online dating for a while, swiping into frustration and deleting my profiles after three days of connecting with guys and only occasionally talking. I went on dates that ended nowhere, which made me wonder if there was something wrong with me; if I had been so long without a meaningful connection with someone that I had very little capacity for it now.
After we cut contact, I wished I had never met him in the first place, for the only thing I knew was pain. However, over time, I was able to see how things have happened exactly the way it should and come to feel grateful for even the pain I felt, and so much more.